Hey Listen Up!

There is a wealth of information available that informs us about the positive effect that connection has on our mental health. Much like the “five-a-day” promotion or even the “apple a day keeps the doctor away” slogan from my 70s childhood there is plenty of evidence to support the claims that such information gives us. 

So my question is this: why do I resist something that I know is beneficial to my state of mental health? And when I say resist, I do so with such stubbornness that it causes me a sense of psychological pain that then morphs into actual physical pain. 

I wonder: what is the pay off for me to act in such ways? If we accept the notion that everything has a motive then the question is begged: “is my self-destruct so familiar to me that I actively choose the path with the steepest incline, and while traversing this hill from hell I actively ignore the glaring fact that I have the solution, and yet choose the problem over said solution time and time again?”

Is the answer to my quandary as simple as I am so familiar with the pain that my resistance delivers that I just go with Liam Gallagher’s flow and roll with it?  

Or  

Being a Cancerian, that the timing of my origin makes me, I turn to water and choose the path of least resistance? If this is the case then whilst writing this short epistle I have unearthed a previously well hidden fact about myself – I am a living oxymoron as I choose the path of least resistance whilst resisting. 

Perhaps the realisation of being a oxymoron is half right and if that’s the case I should change my moniker to Gordon.

Photo by Mat Amp (Instagram: @matamp67)