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Bubbling Magma.


Reported by Mahesh

Published on Thursday, September 15th, 2022

Identity Mental Health Recovery
Blogs Reports

Bubbling Magma.


Written by Mahesh

Published on Thursday, September 15th, 2022

Identity

Mental Health

Recovery

My universe imploded when I became homeless.  The way people have been made homeless is reminiscent of the Nazi brown shirts policy of knocking on targeted doors at ungodly hours and ordering residents to leave their homes. People have been left in complete, unbelievable shock, wondering where they can go.  Leaving home stunned and in a daze, people are left wondering where to go, what to do next, walking with leaden steps, pulse racing at the awfulness of the moment. This is one circumstance which no human, anywhere should be subjected to at any time, but especially not during peacetime.  

The realisation that one is truly, physically homeless, almost immediately and with very little warning can leave you stunned. The finality of the feeling induced by losing the infrastructure of the home and the safety provided by it is truly shocking.  

It takes a seemingly glacial passage of time to get one’s bearing’s together and to even tangentially start to accept and understand this new universe of ‘homelessness’. 

Suddenly, one is homeless and the ‘rug of life’ has gotten pulled away from under one’s feet It. It is awful, simply awful and personally, it is taking an indeterminate length of time for the dust to settle. To be honest, it is hard to know if it ever will.  

Cogitating now in 2022 on my experiences, with some distance and time away from the ‘homeless universe’ has to an extent made me stoic and made me increasingly skeptical about the ways of life generally. The fragility of life and its transience colours the way I presently live.  

Saying that the dust has seemingly settled for now but one has to be careful to adapt and adopt lifestyles to ensure that the settled dust remains undisturbed. It will always be present. 

My trust in my current circumstances, however favourable, steady and positive, can be eroded if things change for the worse. And this is my worry because homelessness has bit my ass twice. Each time was unforeseen and each time I was not to blame as I was caught in the cross-fire. 

 

Written by Mahesh


It is an absolute honour to be accepted to join the Listen Up! team at this wonderful organisation - Groundswell - in London. Having been previously involved with Groundswell in 2016, who partnered with the Pavement magazine as part of the From the|Ground Up project [also funded by Comic Relief] it is  awesome to be joining the Listen Up! project. Being a Londoner and previously having experienced homelessness, I come to Groundswell via Emmaus in South London. I look forward to being part of the team, rejoining and working with some of my previous colleagues on this project.

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One thought on “Bubbling Magma.

  1. This is really powerful, Mahesh. Your similes and metaphors really hit home for me (no pun intended!). So glad that you’ve joined the reporting team.

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